Add oil for me =)

I am very excited now. But then feel guilty after it. Why human so contradictory?

I know I will failed again for this exam. I never study at all. I really hope nobody will ask me again on how my progress is. I really don't know how to answer. When I told the truth, nobody will trust me. Then what the answer that you expected for.

I plan to fail it. I know it is a bad thinking. But for sure I will be very very very hardworking for the next sitting. Study hard for it and no regret. May be I lost myself for the last half year and I hope next half year will have a big changing on me. I am serious and I am not just only say say about it. May be it's a bit late for me to be serious now on this age since I have been wasted my time for the last 3 years, but the most important thing is the ending right? Forcing myself to accept the fact. I am late and I always regret on many things. But what to do.

I start to feel the stress already. Dad start warning me. I know I need to give up some things in the future. Start to feel scare already >.<

p/s : 答应你我会好好过 不让这些眼泪白流